Looooooooooong day!!!!

yesterday morning, i woke up as early as 7.30am. so long din wake up so early in the morning. haha. i woke up early to go to the yacht. have to finish the work before my uncle comes on fri. so i went to the boat, did some heavy work. have to pull the big thing here n there. almost worn out. then, i rushed back for my classes. after my day long classes, i went to the gym. u know, after so long, i'm going back to gym. i was damn tired after doing all those workout. man, really worn out.

after that, guess what did i do. haha. i went to play football on basketball court with another 2 frens. who else if they r not boon and dan. haha. well, we played like hell. i was already worn out and after football, i dunno how to describe how fatigue i was. i took dinner with aman n dan. had some good conversation. then i took a power nap for two hours. woke up at about 12am to start studying.

once i open the notes, my eyes started closing. haha. so decided to join dan to study. went to the room and we ordered McD. that ganja guys packed the wrong things for us. instead of 20pc of nuggets, they gave us fillet-o-fish and mcspicy. we had to call back for 5 times before they could understand what the hell we were talking bout. man.

i had a good conversation with may san. after so so long, i'm talking with her. it was like heart to heart talking. no worries. she's my best'est' girl friend. so we share a lot of things. then, dan n i went to watch ars vs Juve. ars were awesome. respect. if they continue playing like that, they can beat any team in the world including Malaysia. haha.

went to sleep at 5am. missed the 8am class but had fun in the lab and the day continues.....

An important day.....

well, today is a very important day for me..... life is unpredictable, u know. i dunno y. every year, my feelings for today is getting stronger. is it because of my frens around me? no idea...... anyways, life has to go on. time doesnt wait for anyone. hope everything will be fine. i still have a promise to keep. a life long promise... and fren, i'll definitely do it. please trust me. i'll keep my promise and will not hesitate to give my life to keep the promise.

this morning, my fren from UK called me at 5am. man, it was only 9pm in UK but still, 5am in singapore. there goes my sleep. i was having a good dream, dancing with sonali bendre. hahaha. she screwed up everything. this fren is my childhood fren. we had a lot of fun together with other frens particularly when we were in form 2 (sec 2). those days were among the best days in my life. haha.

i was not me today. but still i have to carry on with my life. i went to the only class today. guess who i sat with. Wan ting. haha. cool. maybe some of my frens will get jealous. haha. well, i had a great time with her. we were talking and i realize that she's a bit quiet but during conversation, she's not the one word answer type of a girl. she cheered my day, actually. thanks, wan ting. lets go out together. hahaha.

after coming back, i was hyped up to study. but looking at the bed, i woke up at 5.30pm. hope u guys understand. went to gym alone. need to put on weight. my dad is ganja worried bout my figure as i'm losing weight. dun worry, pa. i'll be back to normal. haha.

had dinner with dan and boon. talked some sensitive issues but dunno how to solve or get over them. but at least, we have frens to talk to. 3 of us alwiz.......... haha. quite funny. best buddies one can ever find. together, all my frens cheered my day. thanks a lot............

exams are coming n i'm hyped up again to study. now i'm gonna study in the study room. no more in my room as my bed will tempt me. it is irresistable...........

good show....

i joined counter strike competition on thurs. well, my team lost. as usual. i was the worst player on the ground. as alwiz. i know i'm very bad. but improving. only till the middle of the game, i realized i din have the pad and my mouse sensitivity was 13. i din know it was that sensitive. a slight move in the mouse made a lot of difference in the screen. sorry guys, the opposition team has an advantage. anyways, for the upcoming competitions, i'll try my best. one day, i'm gonna write in this blog that i kicked ass in the competition. haha. good goal.

today, i started my new life...... i dunno y. everytime i start a new life, it's alwiz after a heart breaking event. haha. well, today, i went to this vanavil primary school talent time. wow, the kids are very talented. very. at that age, they rock. i wished i was 10 years younger. actually i've fallen in love with a girl's voice. she is awesome. obviously, she won the singing competition. she sang very well. for once, i really felt the sense of belonging.

it was a good competition; i enjoyed it till the last minute. local artist showed up. i was the first aider for the competition. haha. free show. nothing happened as i hoped. haha. came back and took a nap before started this blog. now i'm going to watch football; alone. used to it, actually..... dunno what match is actually shown on tv but whatever it is, its football..... haha......

A big decision....

today, i have taken a decision which could change my life..... a big one. i've decided not to create a boundry around me and destroy whatever restriction blocks i've built around myself. this is life where i need to see the outside world, rather than mourning inside the small hut i built around myself. all my big decisions have been in March. this is kind of a special month for me.

now, it's time for me to concentrate bout myself and my future. i wanna colour my future with joy n fun. i wanna learn and enjoy my life. its unfair to my felings if i refuse to experience new things. i dunno exactly whether what i'm doing is right or not, but definitely, i'm not going to regret over it. for the first time in my life, i'm giving up on something i believed on........

anyways, tomorrow, we r taking part in the counter strike competition. haha. enjoy again. and i have to finish my term paper which is due on fri. lets do it......

3 days for 3 months' term paper!

i have about 3 days to finish my term paper and i haven started completely yet. just finished one journal and still got 2 more to go. basically, i have no idea what r they talking. haha. anyways, hope blogging can make me feel better to finish reading the journals. well, this thurs we are having counter strike competition again. this time, we r not gonna give up without fighting. haha. i'll deliver my best. hope so.

just chatted with Charlene. haven talked with her for weeks. man, that long. after talking to her, feeling better coz we had some kind of deep talk. hahaha. thanx charlene. hope i din bore u with my stories.

the day is approaching. A day which changed my whole life starting 9 years ago. the event is still fresh in my mind. my secondary frens shud know what am i talking about. i'm kind of scared to face the day but it has been 9 years. i think i shud just go thru like what i've gone thru for the past 8 years. every year, i feel like the feelings get stronger and i'm getting more afraid.

well, anyways, life has to go on. no matter what, time doesnt wait for us. future, here i come!!!

Long Day, Long night, followed by long sleep!

slept at 6am on sat morning, i woke up at 8 am to help my uncle at the yacht. we were working there till 2pm before my uncle decided want to go back. i escorted him to JB. Before i could come back, dan, aman n boon were on the way to jb. well, i have to stay there waiting for them. N it took them hours before reaching jb. i think they were swimming accross the causeway. man... after that, we went for a movie. a good one. V for Vertigo, ops Vendetta. they were talking so fast and the subtitles were not complete..... so some parts, i dun understand that much. think i have to watch it again to get the full idea.

after taking dinner at some street stalls (the food was not that nice but better than here in Singapore), we watched so called snake show. Just like any other shows, he started off with some advertisements. a chinese medicine. all of the theory he told was against the scientific law i've learnt so far and one thing i really couldnt take it. He told that when we take our bath at night, the water can go in our skin to our muscle and lastly to our bones. thats y we r having back aching n so on. wow, good marketing skills. hahaha. i still cant take it. n he was talking n talking till we got bored and we decided to leave coz we din think he's gonna touch the king cobra without talking for another hour.

we came back to sing at about 11pm. after the mess created by aman, we went to Hooters... (american-like bistro where the waitress have big boops). they had some drinks. i have my mango juice. well, even though none of us was drunk, but we were doing all those stuffs which drunken people will do. haha. then we went to this club which i dunno the name. the music was fantastic. i can feel the bass from top to toe inside to deep in my bones. really cool. if the chinese guy who sells the chinese medicine knows bout it, he would have created a story telling that the sound can destroy the bones or something like that.

we spent only a while in the club coz i really wanted to go back. damn tiring after the day. we took a merc cab (insited by me), and reached PGP at 2.10am. it was a long day to be hones, i had a great time with my frens. i went to bed at 3am and woke up at 12.30pm. that was the longest sleep for the past week. good one......

Preparing the yacht for sailing but my education'ship' is sinking!

I've been sleeping for 2 to 4 hours per day for the past one week. i feel so weak but could not help it. I have to do so coz my uncle is around. I have to help him prepare the yacht for sailing. since he's here, he's sleeping in my room and i'm 'homeless' now. have been sleeping in the tv as well as the seminar rooms. not as good as my bed and mattress. haha.

Today, i slept for 3 hours. then i went to settle some stuffs at Office of Student Affairs and underwent medical screening. i haven had a proper sleep for days, and i'm all healthy. thats cool. after the class, my test post-mortem, felt very bad bout the test but nothing can be done. did badly for the test. then, i had to pass up my lab report and my frens'. ganja, the lab was at one corner and ziyad's, my tutor, lab is somewhere in the world which ken, sapien and i had a hard time finding it. after passing the reports, i rushed back to my room to get prepared to start work. it was 4.45pm when i reached the yacht. starting from 5pm to 9pm non-stop, i was working. and the stuffs i did were the heavy ones. i dunno. i'm weak, feeling unwell, tired and sleepy but i was going all the way. ganja. i really dun know from where i get all this motivations and encouragement. no one knows what the hell i'm going thru but i felt someone there gave me all the reason to go on and give my best.

now, it's 3am. and i'm still standing. haha. how? no idea. if this carries on for another one week, i think my best frens will be jason and freddie. sigh... but, life has to go on.............

Counter Strike strikes the exam....

genetic exam was a disaster for me. at one time i din know what was i doing in the lecture hall in front of few papers. man, it was that bad till i promise myself not to burst in tears after the paper. din have confidence in the paper but i think i've given everything i had. now what i can do is hope for the best. well, it's quite frustrating to get a bad result after putting in a lot of effort and burning a lot of midnight oil..... and still hoping......

a day before, dan, aaron, boon and i participated the counter-strike competition. 40% CA the day after but we were shooting some bad guys. hahaha. but it was fun. we trained hard for the competition and we won the first round and went thru to the semis. in the semis, we lost to WCG players who were acting chicken by camping here n there as well as back stabbing. and worse still they were proud of what they were doing. we were very frustrated and disappointed not because we lost but we couldnt do anything looking at some arrogent cheapskates. WCG players who don't deserve even a cent of respect. no wonder singapore din win the WCG. haha.......

Now, i'm very busy with my reports, and sailing stuffs. very busy. sleeping after 3am everyday for the past few days dy. feel like just wanna throw everything and chillout somewhere.... but this is not the time to give up. another 7 weeks and everything will be fine. just have to go on n try harder.....

no mood.....

i'm having a 40% test on tuesday and haven even started a proper revision. man, i'm gonna screw up this test. sigh.. i know the test is important and its essential to sit n study but i dun have the push to really sit n study. what am i doing now is nothing but wasting time. i know what am i doing is wrong and impropriate but i just cant help it. getting pissed bout that.....

tomorrow for the first time in my life, i'm entering a computer game competition which i started to play two weeks before. just to have fun. well, i know i'm gonna cause the defeat of my teammates, but i will not give up. even though i'll die in the game very soon, i'll try my very best to at least give a hint to my teammates where the enemies are. i'm gonna play for fun....

yesterday, i went for a first aid duty at vanavil audition. this audition is for primary school kids and believe me, they really have the potential of becoming singers, dancers and actors/actresses. they are good. and i'm invited for the grand finale on the 25th of March. cool...

i need to go sailing next sun, simply means, this week, i'll be ganja busy cleaning and preparing the yacht to sail. its gonna be another hectic n tiring week. hope i can cope up.

as for now, i'm really worried bout my coming test........

Relaxing.........

well, after coming back from KL, felt very sad. nevermind. after coming back, screwed up my biochem. very very sad. have put in a lot of effort but still cannot make it. sigh..... the experimental genetic results sux like hell too...... ganja.

but today, after screwing up two of my papers and part of my life, at last i have something to smile about. My Probability module. i have to work hard on it now. having good result and dun wanna screw it up in the finals... then there wont be anyone as stupid as i do. hahahaha.

met yee ying, resistant (her nick name), in the lecture. well, dunno what the lecturer was grumbling in front, we were talking at the back. quite nice. after a long long time, i was spending some time with her. it's very hard to see her, u know, as she's very busy. so spending some time chatting with her is kind of precious for me. yee ying, i have talked a lot with ya. hope they are safe with you. hahaha.

after coming back from lecture, i rushed to the temple. if you wanna relax and calm yourself, temple would alwiz be the best place. i had a peaceful time meditating there. seemed like all my problems were solved. well, i'm solving and facing one by one though with His support. just realized i have not been calling back home. if this goes on, i think next month my parents would forget that they have a son here. hahaha.......

Bro's Graduation

25th Feb is a historical day for my bro. its his graduation day. i can say, he's the first one to get a degree in our family. and i'm truly proud of it. he deserves it. after going thru a lot of obstacles, he has made his dream come true. first class honours now with a stable job. what else one needs. he will succeed in his life, n i have confidence in it.

well, i went to kl on friday, the 24th. reached kl around 5pm. my bro came down to fetch me. then, with his gf, my sis in law, we went to take lunch as i was in the bus during lunch time. the bus driver stopped in a place where we could only get fruits. ganja. not filling at all. after taking late lunch, more like a tea time break, we went to padang jawa, where my uncle n his family live. after 8 months, i'm meeting them. wow, the feeling, can describe in words. while my parents were on the way to my uncle's house, this couldnt be better. but u know, my father is a tension guy. my parents lost their way, so they were quarreling bout it. thank god my aunt was in the car as well. so not that bad. haha. i met them at padang jawa. they reached before us. man, that feeling again....... satisfaction, happiness, joy, etc. u name it.

as usual, its my bro n i. we lifted up the environment there with lots of laughter n joy. even mukilan (my fren, junior, student, play mate, etc) was there. so we were having fun to the max.

that night, i din sleep. i was talking with, aunt. we were talking bout lots of things. she has this multiple sclerosis. a rare nerve disease. no cure but she's living with it. what a strong lady. salute for her. n she's strong becoz of her husband, my uncle. guys sometimes are the reason ladies are living. he gave her hope when she craved needed it. he gave her trust when she really needed it. he was there whenever she wanted somebody. a true husband's love. they are my role models as well. its not good to write what we have discussed, but basically, everyone shud be grateful with what we r now. dun start to miss only when u missed it, start appreciating now. live is short. make it beautiful.

oh ya. the next day was my bro's grad. i din sleep the whole night and i was driving on the kl road the next morning. we( with my uncle n aunt) reached quite late so we were not allowed to go in. anyways, i was washing my eyes with my uncle. haha. then, my juniors came. we had fun all day long. in shorts words, those were the best days in my life after so long. thanks everyone.
the next day, before i left to sing, i met Jennifer. my longest childhood fren. the only fren whom i know for so long. we were talking bout all the things happened in our lives. she's fine. at least now. haha

i left to sing about 5pm. reached singapre at midnight with only one thing in my mind which my bro said; we r sprending 4 years only for the 4 secs on the stage and a piece of paper. i think its true.....

mid term break....... broke!

regular readers would wonder what in the blue black world has happened as i stopped blogging. haha. just quite busy recently. lets get started with the mid term break which was a week ago. the break started with my presentation (previous blog). Then, i had seminar on Monday. I was truly let down by my members as the attendance for the event was terrible. Dr. Tan has put in a lot of effort but we din show him the true support. very disappointed with that. anyways, we can only improve the next time. hope we will. On tues, i went to jb with dan and stephan (german SEP guy). really had fun going around jb and playing. i have to buy some toiletries and tiger biscuits for my fren, so we were looking around the shopping complex and at last we found them. But, it seems that the tiger biscuits were not what my fren was looking for. damn, its my fault. shud have been more careful. sorry, girl.

the next day, they went to science centre, not sure who but as far as i concern, they were dan, aaron, boon, weixin, pinggee n may san. hope din miss anyone. i went for a workshop and earned 40 bucks in just an hour. best deal in town. haha. they were spending like hell while i was earning. haha. the workshop was very good. i was dealing with 20 students for 4 sessions. did some jokes. my topic was on choking. it was what i master in. so i din face a lot of probs. the PRCs were very sportive. i really enjoyed that.

next pit stop, my bro's graduation.......