FREEEEEEE!!!!!

well, just finished my exam. feeling so so so much relaxed. this is the moment i waited for so long. this semester has been a very bad semester. lots of pressure, workload, problems, etc. but i cruised through. that's the spirit.
the paper was tough. din have enough time to finish. but nvm..... last paper is alwayz nice... hahaha. one thing about my last paper, cell bio. i think this module shud be taught for primary schools students. y? coz its full of ABCs. just that those ABCs are not systematically arranged. in this module, if u think 2 comes after 1, u r most probably wrong. but if u just mix up the alphabets, u r almost right. hahahaha.
this particular month has been a mixture of joy, stress, pressure and laughter. i have given up on everything at one time; thanx to my frenz who lifted me up. the time i spent with my frens in the study room, the laughter, jokes and story we shared together just couldn't have made my days better. now holidays.... i'm there!!!!

No Hope or hopeless???

well, i did badly for my calculus...... the hall was very cold, my hand was shivering, these are excuses. just couldnt do well. i had the confidence looking at the questions but when i attempted, i got stucked. hope i did well......

i saw her today. she's getting more n more beautiful everyday. i feel it. when she's around feel like i can do anything, can face anything......

it's another day of sleepless night. sounds cool. have to prepare for my last paper, cell bio. trust me, the notes if compiled can be as thick as the bible. and i have only around 24hours to read it. haiyo, too stressed up. nvm.... just keep going on...
Dan has finished his paper. almost all A1 pep have finished their exams..... they already start enjoying while i'm still stucked in the room; studying. whatever, i can start enjoying after wednesday. i'm quite busy after that though. have to plan my holidays after that. have to start working, planning for Red Cross and need some break to go back home. need some planning or everything will mess up........

Holidays.... here i come!!! HAHAHAHAHA

sleepless night....

boon, dan and i were making fun of KUSTEM in the room. the atmosphere was filled with laughter and joy. who really cares about the exam tomorrow. as long as Man U beat West Ham today, we can do well in our exams. And Man U is leading now. we r spirited to go for the exams.

i was going thru some calculus problems, flipped thru notes and browsed the exam papers and answers, but ended up writing this blog. so just guess how much i 'understand' calculus. man, how am i suppose to do tom. maybe i'll come out after an hour of test (we r not allowed to come out before an hour).

after boon went back to his room, the atmosphere now a bit dull. with dan doing something with his com, figuring how he's gonna sit for tom's exam. everybody's problem. i guess he's blogging too. hahaha.

i'll feel only relieved after Man U scores another goal to make it 3-1. well, i think i'm not suppose to blog that often. this semester has been very bad for me. but hope next sem will be better.

Gambate..............

The Unspoken Love......

The Unspoken Love………..


My love story started when I first met her;
My heart stopped beating, but
my eyes just didn’t want to stop looking;
her beauty can trigger the third world war,
but her smile will settle them all down!

We became close friends
on the second day we met,
And I realized that,
it’s actually her inner beauty
which reflects on her face!

Right at that second,
I decided that,
if I were to spend
the rest of my life with an angel
it would be someone like her……
it would be her

I didn’t think about her feelings,
I didn’t know how far it will go,
And I didn’t care what the consequences are;
what I thought I knew I was caring for is to love her;
and just to love her……

now, I realized that
I’m the one who will be hurt;
but everything is just too late…..

I’ll never regret for loving her
meeting her is a dream come true for me
though I’m not going to live with her,
I’ll be counting my days for her…

If water is the measure of my love,
then, the ocean is just a drop
of my river of love

If my love is strong and pure,
you’ll come back to me for sure;
and I’ll wait for that moment
even if it takes a million years

my love story ended
before it could have even started
it was not because of her who rejected,
it was because of me who hesitated

listen to your heart,
if it says that she is your soul mate,
then go… go now and don’t wait
because it has never been late………



Created by,

Dinesh @ Didi
19 May 2005

Title by: Charlene­

The story continues.....

what a boring afternoon. i tried to sleep for the past two hours but ended up shivering under the damn air-con in the study room. well, sleeping on the floor is not comfortable though. tomorrow, i have another paper. but at the moment, i'm trying to empty my mind. well, my mind has been empty alwiz but this is an excuse for me to take some rest.
what dan said few weeks ago still makes me giggle. he said that the moment he found his gf (girlfriend) he's gonna slap her and ask her where has she been for all these years. i hope the girl will not slap him back and ask the same question. this fella has problem in approching girls. he doesn't have the guts to take the first step but expecting girls to come to him. very bad. actually, every single guy wants this. same like me. i have no experience in approaching girls. how am i suppose to get a gf then. sigh.... i think i've been fated to be a bachelor all my life. what a sad life.
even though i met my dream girl, i hesitated to tell her. my fault but i was not ready and prepared. by the time i was prepared...............

"IF ONLY YOU KNOW, MY GLORIOUS LOVE"

"IF ONLY YOU KNOW, MY GLORIOUS LOVE"


The first time I met you,
I didn’t like you,
Everything that you do,
seemed not to be true

When I was celebrating,
There were a lot of friends….laughing
But, you were one step further….smiling. Why?
When I was in tears,
none of them appears,
But, you were still one step further…..smiling. Why?

When I felt the world is against me,
you were there for me,
giving me strength and hope
to walk up against the slope

I dunno why,
whenever I’m with you,
feel like a lifetime passes in a second,
but, when we are apart,
one second takes a lifetime

I’m so near to you,
yet I’m feeling so far,
I have thousands of words to say,
but I couldn’t say a word to you

You gave me feelings which I can’t understand;
You gave me pain which I can’t bear in mind.

I dunno whether you love me or love me not,
but, I will love you till my last breath;
And even after that,
my memories will still love you!

Winning your heart is one part of my life,
the other part would be, making you happy!


Created by,
Dinesh @ Didi
12/03/2005
Title by: Leng lui

The story begins......

The poem i posted previously was what i thought about love. After looking people dying for their love, revenge, etc. i was able to see only hatred and jealousy, not love. dun blame me coz of my thoughts. give u an example, there is a guy who loved a girl so much..... so much till i dunno how to describe. the girl was giving a good response. what i thought at that time was a happy ending.... means a fairy tale ending. it was that close and romantic. it was going on smoothly. ops, i forgot to mention that he hasn't actually expressed his love to her. waiting for the right time (maybe his funeral, i guess) to tell her. before he could express himself to her, she found another handsome guy (not as handsome as me though), richer and cooler. our fren here, what else...... love failure lah. how can a person don't realize that he/she being loved. i dun understand. our fren then start to do funny things. cursing her, bla bla bla, what a typical loser would do. man, scary. that's y i always thought that love is pain ful.

but till i met her. everything seems to change. i start to take care of my outlook. trying my best to give a good image to her. wow, wan me to describe her. i feel the roses will get envy looking at her beauty. even though i know that i'm not up to her standard, but it's not a crime to admire beauty. i start to listen to some love songs..... man, never did that before. cool. the songs were relaxing and refreshing. and for her i wrote a poem again...................

(continues......)

Love is Full of Pain.........

Love is full of pain……………

Love is full of pain……..

Even when my friends said
that the love is great,
I’d always thought they were crazy

Love is full of pain……..

On seeing couples in love,
I would laugh,
thinking they are crazy

Love is full of pain…….

Only till I met you….
you crafted the smile on my face,
bringing me up to the surface
Yes! Now, I’m crazy…

Love is full of pain………

Wasn’t my principle at all,
you made my life meaningful;
taught me love is beautiful….

But.. you left me in a sudden,
Just like a butterfly leaving the garden
Leaving me alone…….in tears
Even though I know you only for a while
It was worthwhile…….. After all,

Love is full of pain……..


Created by,

Dinesh @ Didi

02-02-05

funny thinking......

haish..... what a boring day. went to jb this morning. came back as fast as i could to meet my tutors. i went thru the webcasts (lecture webcasts) like watching serials. i respect the ability of people who can watch dramas or serials continuously. just amazing. i just cant stuck my butt at one place more than an hour. hehehe.
well, its funny to think some of the shopkeepers. i think the engineers must get a degree from them instead. if any machines go wrong while they are dealing with the customers, they'll conclude something which the founder or creater might not even dreamt about it. very funny. for an instance, the notes (money) was stucked in the money counting machine which counts money notes in a flash. since it was stucked, the machine stopped counting. suddenly, the old guy said that the notes were all new and smooth and that's y it cannot count. he didn't mention anything about the stucked notes. well, even if he realized that the notes were stucked in the machine, they'll never say so as that would embarrass him. i dun think the engineer who created the machine was aware that smooth notes can cause some technical problems.
now listening back to webcasts. what kind of life is this? in one week time or more precisely in 5 days time, i can sleep soundly without any worries. coz my exams are gonna over. yes lah. at last the worst sem is gonna over. hope for the better next year.

glimpse of hope....

well, i have friends with me. they are like angels sent by god. maybe god cannot take care of everybody. that's y He sends mums and frens to earth.
frens like boon eng, aman, dan, aaron, may san, shiau chuen, pinggee, charlene, weixin, ci qian, TARC frens, SMKM frens, etc. are very hard to find. whenever they are around, feel like its worth living. no matter what happens, as long as they are with me, i can go thru anything.
life is not that bad as what i have thought it would be when everything goes the wrong way. with such frens around, things will only get better n better. no turning back.
thanks my frens. hope u'll be alwiz there.

when everything goes the wrong way......

well, when you feel you have done something to make ur loved ones proud of you but turned out that the screwest thing ever u've done, what would u do? i'm in that situation now.
actually thats only one of the many i'm facing now. when u tried ur very best, giving the best effort but u din get what u want, feel like committing suicide.
i was aware that if u give your very best honestly, u'll at least gain something, but i've lost my confidence. I was badly defeated but this is not an excuse for me to hide or give up. i'll cme back stronger. the harder i fall, the stronger i'll bounce back. but time matters.
i'm having the worst days in my life. rather than thinking y is it happening to me, its better to think thank god its happening to me now. think positive.
since this is my first blog message, just giving confidence and advice to myself and whoever reads this. My days are dark now. but i'm sure sooner or later i'll feel the sunshine. tough times come n go but tough people remain.