Sensitivity.....

When a friend promises to meet you and broke the promise, you get pissed and ask the person y did he/she break the promise. When you say, "I'm disappointed in you for breaking the promises", the reply would be, "Y r u so sensitive?" And if thats sensitive, then i'm ganja sensitive!!!!

Then, when we tell them their mistakes and our opinion bout their attitudes, they go, "Y r u saying like this." (starting to be emotional). haiyo... these people will never learn. i have given up in having hope that they will change one day in these people . We have done everything a layman could do. Maybe we have not blackmailed anyone. I think we should start. then, people will realize exactly what are we trying to convey!!!

What is wrong in giving opinion? I thot, this is a democratic country... Constructive opinions are there to change a person to a better person.... and u know what will be the reply??? "You have to respect me for who I am!" Haiyo, it's hard to make these people understand. Well, lets all respect Osama for who he is..... If he is a good person, then we should. But i really think he should change. The whole world is thinking that.

Nowadays, meeting those kind of people makes me feel y am i here? a lot of questions are bombarding me. and the only thing i can think right now is, "Y am i so stupid?" if you can understand what i mean.......

How r u? Take care... Thank you... do u really mean it???

i was at home the other day. went out to pick my newspaper outside coincidentally met my neighbour who was picking up his newspaper. with a broad smile, he asked, "How are you?" I was polite and replied him. But before i could even say, "I'm fine and how bout you?", he went in. so i was thinking... is he really wanted to know how i was???

and i realized... i have came across a lot of people saying thank you, take care, good luck, bla bla bla. but how many of them really mean it??? nobody can answer that. the only person who can answer is u urself. whenever u wish someone, think again. do u really mean it? if you do, then it's fine. if you don't, time to change. dun say something just for the sake of saying. when you wish a person, make sure it comes from your heart. then it's meaningful. or it's just useless. even rubbish can be recycled but wishes without meaning is really useless. Remember, speak from your heart when u r wishing or asking. and one more thing, when you are asking for a favour, ask properly. dun treat your helper as your slave. remember this.

And bout men-women relationship. how many of you want to bring your relationship to the next level. marriage???? well lets see what Chris Rock says about marriage.....

Nelson Mandela gor divorced. Nelson Mandela spent 27 years in South African prison. Nelson Mandela was forced to do hard labour work under the hot African sun everyday for 27 years. He did it with no f**king problem. He came out from the prison, got married and after 6 months he went, "I can't take this shit no more!"

hahaz. just to make everyone smile....

Trying to be funny???

i had perfect deepavali holidays back at home. It just couldn have been better. now, i have a lot of catching up to do... haiyo!!!!

well, after coming back, i realized something. people, especially girls, like artists. not comedian. They will laugh at all your jokes, they'll enjoy each n every word coming out from our mouth, they wouldn't have been happier without you around but at the end, they'll end up with artists. haha. a movie is not complete without some jokes. so people think, jokes are just there to spice up the movie. lemme tell something about people who like to make others laugh.....

i ain't talking about those who make fun of others. not those who hurt others just to steal the limelight. i'm talking about those who genuinely make others smile without hurting anyone. without them, the world would have been so boring till you wanna kill the person sitting right beside of u now. they are so important. they actually also make the world a better place to leave in. after all, laughter is the best medicine. so the person who makes u laugh is the best doctor ever. rite??? if you agree with the former, u have to agree with the latter.

but there's a problem about the best doc. people take them easily. people think they are insensitive and will take everything as a joke. come on... jovial people are normal human beings too. they have feelings as well. from what i observe, the more jovial a person is, the more sensitive he/she will be. you can joke with the jovial person but make sure your jokes don't hurt him. your joke can be lame. coz u might not good in making jokes. but try not to hurt others. dun ASSUME that he/she will take it easily. if you r not good at jokes, then dun joke. or u'll make yourself stupid!

what i'm stressing here is people who make jokes do have feelings but please don't hurt that by assuming they can handle it. please don't assume that way! try to understand them more than their jokes. u might find a new person inside him/her. remember, jovial persons do have feelings.....

reason to smile even during hard times!!!

i have wrote about my feelings before. i have shared a lot about my hard times. i have even complained about friends who disappoint me. how did i get thru this. what made me feel that everything is meant to be. what actually saved me??? obviously, friends like Dan Ladyboy, Ron, Boonie, Aman Gayman, Loga Estate, Ganesh, Hema, Suresh and Adrian are the friends one will find when he/she is in trouble. They may look funny but trust me, it's worth telling them. Girl friends like Pinky, May San, Minsin, Shiau Chuen, Ci Qian, Weixin and others are not bad as well. However, i dun share everything with everyone. In fact, i have never shared everything with one of them. It's not their prob, but it's actually mine. I want my friends to be happy always. I'll be seeing them everyday and i just wanna see smiles on their faces and nothing else. Did i manage to go thru everything without sharing? No, i dun think anyone can do that. I'm gonna tell about a friend of mine who has been there for me since the day one i know her.

She was my classmate in Year 1 in NUS. And actually, i must thank God for letting me to know this girl. We were friends since then. We might not meet often; in fact it's very hard to meet her since she's very busy. haha. we dun see each other much. We chat online quite often. MSN has been our main means of communication. That's why friends around me dunno about this one of my dearest friend. I call her my Angel since she's there for me when s*it happens and laughs with me when joy is around me.

A guy needs a girl to share his problems. I've shared almost everything with her. She is an interesting person who has the same lifestyle everyday. she has given me advice which somehow changed my stubborness, some of my principles and etc. and i know, they have changed me to a better person. whenever i'm unhappy with anything, she lends me her ears. She listens to me even though sometimes i'm unreasonable... then, she gave me her opinion and advice and of course i'll follow her guidance whenever necessary. Everytime, when somethings happen, i will always wanna share with her. she's someone special; definitely.

Our relationship is just friends. Best friends. That's all. I dunno whether people can understand this relationship but one has to have this plutonic friendship to understand what am i trying to say. She has been an Angel for me for all these years. And Charlene, for all, i would like to say only one thing; Thank You!!! and Happy belated Birthday!!!

way to celebrate a guy's birthday....

Friday the 13th was Ron's birthday..... well, Dan n i din get the chance to celebrate his birthday with him coz u know its for everyone..... we celebrated with some friends. with girls. so it was a bit 'girly'. haha.... so we have to have some guys outing for Ron!!! so today, we went out to Vivo city. seems like outing for couples but haha, we have to go to a coo place. haha....

we took our dinner at Carl's Junior. Good food. haha. then we went to arcade. we shot some bad guys and dinosours. haha. then we kicked some balls. now, that's a game worth spending for. we were kicking balls and guess what, Ron is the top striker. haha. but we always lose at semis or finals. couldn't win the tournament. need more practice and team understanding. haha...

then, we went to the open space to admire the beauty of Sentosa island. haha. again, looks like couples outing. well, close friends do spend time together like this. haha. it was a great outing. it was cool. we were laughing all the way from the beginning till we said goodbye to each other.

now, that's the way to celebrate a guy's birthday rather than just singing a birthday song. haha. well, we can celebrate by cutting the cake, singing the song and bla bla but those r basic stuffs. we need to do something new to make the birthday boy special. haha. now, thats what we call fun!

Mother....

God cannot take care of everyone at the same time. God cannot show His love to everyone at the same time. Therefore, He created a person who can love us, who can care for us, who share our problems and who will sacrifice anything for us. He created Mother!!!

No matter how close we are with our friends, colleagues, brothers, sisters, cousins, etc. Nothing can be compared with our mother's love. When we are hungry, pain, disappointed, frustrated, happy and joyful, we always find our mum. I can definitely say that mothers have made the world a better place to live in. Definitely.

Wherever we go or whatever we do, there's always a person who will expecting us back home with broad arms filled with love. Our mother. She is undeniably a reason for us to go back. Mother, without u, there wouldn't be love in this world. The first person to love us is our mother. She has been loving us ever since we were 'formed'. She cared for us every single day since she was carrying us in her. Who else can do that? That's why mother's love is the greatest.

Mum, I just wanna say, Happy Birthday!!! May all your wishes come true. And I know you just wish the best for us. We'll make your wish come true! Mum, I Love You!!! Thank you for everything. If there's a day where I love you; if there's a day where I think about you; and if there's a day where I live for you; it's EVERYDAY!!! Love you, mum. Mum, you are the best!

time to be happy...

for the past few weeks or so, i've been negative! no more. it's time to be happy. haha... i think this will last only till friday coz on friday, i'll be sitting for a test which i dun have even a percent of confidence to pass the paper. haha.

Dan n i were talking bout girls just now and we came to a simple conclusion. to get a girl, lets go back home! haha, trust me. it makes sense. our kind of girls are back at hometown waiting for us. lets pick a rose from the hometown garden. those are the ones for us. i watched a movie and the heroin is so beautiful and nice. it gave me confidence that there's a small probabilty such girls exist and if we r nice and patient, we'll get them. and it's worth waiting.... what if there are no roses back at home?? what if?? then lets go back to Aman's place or Boon Eng's place. there will be some roses somewhere!! but i dun think our roses are here. haha...

then what r we gonna do in Singapore. our lives are gonna be boring without girls. At some point in our lives, we, guys, need girls. girls to talk to, girls to play with, girls to tease and joke around. we need them. so what we r gonna do is very simple. we r gonna be friendly around girls. we ain't gonna hurt anyone. just gonna enjoy ourselves and make people around us happy. we gonna admire the girls from far and forget bout them the next second. that's all.

and dudes, dun argue with girls. dun. coz we can never win! guys can never win an arguement with girls coz we have the need to make sense. they don't. so dun argue. just say yes. say yes even before the word comes out from ur girl's mouth. haha.... Chris Rock lines, more to come!!!

Y, y, y and y????

Y it has to end this way??? y it has to happen again..... y, y and y??? these questions are making my life more and more miserable. everytime i try to bounce back stronger, something will struck me to the ground. How many times can i take it. 10, 20 times?? what if it keeps repeating??? how am i gonna survive??? a lot, trust me, a lot of these puzzles are making me so depressed.

no anger, frustration or happiness in me now. only tears. i've always tried to think positive, but when things are happening in the negative ways, how am i suppose to think positively. if i feel that i'm lucky coz something worse could have happened, in a few days time, that will happen to me. y????

God, are U trying to teach me what life is??? is this life?? i really can't take it anymore. I've been fighting a lot since years ago and i'm still fighting. When will this battle end? after i leave the world?? Really feeling like leaving the world now! the only thing which is preventing me from doing so is the people i love around me.

They are giving me strength even though it's actually hopeless to hope. they are encouraging me even though i'm keep losing. For them, i will always try. one day, i will win. one day, i will wake up. and one day, i will bounce stronger. and when that day comes, i will be very strong. and i know, i wont fall down easily after that. God, if U take away these people, then i think there's no reason for me to live......... and that's the worst possible thing that can happen to me now!

Bad luck knocking the door again.....

i still remember... about 10 months ago, i was bombarded with problems. i slowly faced them and somehow managed to solve them. Now, the problems are coming back to me at the same time. Problems are good. they plan very well and attack me at the same time. i'm not going down this time. no more defeats and tears. this time, i'm well prepared. just bring it on... i'm not scared at all!!!

I finished my first mid term paper this afternoon. i realized one thing that i'm a guy who like applying n not deriving. just hate derivations. well, it shows that i'm not creative but innovative which is true. i'm not creative at all. and one more thing. it's really painful when we can figure out the answers for all the tricky and hard questions just to do careless mistakes in the first question. it's more painful than not doing those tricky questions. man, ganja!

for the past few weeks, i've been thinking a lot. a lot till i have no time to think about my studies. haha. i feel hatred, disappointment, frustration and anger around me. just dunno y. i'm trying to calm everything down but guess it's getting bigger n stronger as the days pass by. i dunno where will i be when those feelings explode one day. hope it won't. remember to smile. certain things are best not to be told. so keep it that way.

before i start to study for my next test, here's a joke. Chris Rock said that women hate women. it makes sense but i dunno whether it's true or not. for an instance, when a guy introduces his new girl to his dude, after they left, the dude will go like, "Hmmm... she looks nice. I'm gonna get someone like her." but when a girl introduces her new guy to her girlfriend, when they leave, she goes like, "I'm gonna get HIM! and I will slit the b**ches throat to do it!" haha... something to ponder......