mentality screwed up!!!!

humans are given the priviledge to rule this world. the advantage of human to be superior than other living things is the ability to think. yet for some, their thinking are all messed up!

i have a fren. a childhood fren. she is not that smart but very hardworking. unfortunately, she has to go from the first level. from certificate, diploma and then degree. she wants to finish her degree and i have confidence she can do it. she has the determination to study and she got offerred a place in one of the polytechnics to enroll in 2 years diploma. international business is a good course. however, her parents want her to get married! to get MARRIED! what the hell?? whats wrong with these people. i thot nowadays, parents want their children to get educated as high as possible and these parents want their children to get married to a lowly paid worker at 22. come on. and just because she doesnt want to nod for everything her parents say, they start to curse her. y r those people's mentality screwed up. i really dun unerstand.

now, she is in dilemma. she's alwiz like, "hola, what is i go do?" i really pity her but my dad told me not to go and fight with her parents. after all, we all have been neighbours (a good one) for so many years. hope everything will go well for her........

make love not war......

this statement is what dan once told me. at that time, i felt it was a joke but now i realize that the statement carries a lot of meanings in it!

for all i've blogged bout my frens, i got a long awaited reply. a long explanation from a true fren. a fren who never gives up on anyone, not like me. well, she explained to me the story from the other side. now i realize what they r thinking. i admit, i have blogged bout lots of things without even thinking of th respective party's feelings. what i was thinking at that time was if my feelings were not taken into account, y must i care bout others' feelings. din care, really. now i realize what i've done is wrong. i din intend to hurt anyone but i guess i did hurt a lot of people. maybe the way i took is wrong but the messages i wanted to spread is true. messages were sent to respective people but they went not in an appropiate way.

and now, i have a positive answer from my frens. they are changing. changing to better persons. changing to be respectful in the society. good for them. but sad for me, i've been the bad guy for them. i dun mind, as long as they have turned into well considerate people. now i feel that their eyes were opened. now they know how to face people. very good. for me, i'm not that important. as long as i show up whenever i'm needed, thats fine. i no longer have any feelings now.

i'll somehow start a new life when i reach singapore. i dunno how am i gonna be 'welcomed' there by my frens but i'll start to be more diplomatic. well, war isnt the best way to solve anything. only pain is felt. so now the world is there to love n to be loved. fill up the world with love n joy. perhaps it would be a better place to stay......

cooooool vacation!!

came back from sitiawan last saturday. had a great time there. went for a temple's celebration. i was one of the persons who helped up the celebration. feeling proud of it. during this celebration, i was incharge of first aid. so, i took care of 5 first aiders in the morning and three of them in the evening. nothing bad happened. basically, we had maximum fun together.

teck hooi (VP of PBSM Methodisyt ACS Sitiawan), chin siang, yuki, chun meng and chien woon. these r the pep i spent the most of the time with on the day. even though they r still in secondary school, it was really fun to be with them. we cracked some jokes along the way. as a whole, i enjoyed myself to the max in sitiawan.

well, it takes around 5.5 to 6.5 hours to reach sitiawan form parit buntar including the waiting hours. have to take three buses. man, it was hard from me before i could reach sitiawan. first time going there alone and took a new route, i finally reached sitiawan. firstly, the public transport network in Perak should be improved. but nvm. i had fun.

after coming back on sat, i went out to meet Darsh, my childhood fren, at might. we had good time together at a mamak stall. talked for quite sometime. she had to leave to kl early in the morning the next day. but she spent time with me till 11pm on sat night. i really appreciate it. in fact we would have spent more time together only if my dad in not in the town. haha. well, my dad doesn allow me to go out till late. not her dad though. haha. weird.

i'm now having the best time in my life this year. hope the year will end just like this........

home sweet home......

haha, at last i'm back home. having a great time. just came back from my grandpa's prayers. a lot of laughters n joy back at my grandparent's home. too fun. everyone came back and gathered and we were having fun to the max. wonder when is our next chillout time........

well, one thing happened the day before i came back. i was supposed to come back on the 4th. and it was my fren's birthday. boon and dan persuaded me to stay back to celebrate pinggee's b'day. i had my own reasons to go back early. however, since its once in a year event for pinggee, i stayed back. we were supposed to go for dinner together and celebrate her b'day. however, at about 6 something, we realized that her b'day already celebrated. we were not invited at all. not even a message or a buzz. we were pissed to the max.

i told them, i have had enough. no more compromising. i have had enough. actually more than enough. that was not only the event which proved we were insignificant but that seemed to be the last i could take. last. i've given up on all my frens. thats it. thats it! it's not pinggee's fault coz it was her birthday. so she remains the only one i'll even joke with. not evne a single soul. if one of my 'frens' read this, well this is how i feel now. i have given up on all of u. i'm now in a new track of my life. i'm going on with my life. without most of the pep i called frens.

dan will forgive them. boon will too. because they are so kind. i dun wanna be kind to these pep anymore. those who know me will realize that how patient i used to be and for me to lose my temper, something truly bad should have happen. trust me. it was really bad. as i said, dan n boon will forgive them. infact they already did, i think. i will not. i've given up. how am i suppose to forgive to the same mistakes done by same people??? forgiveness is only given to pep who have done mistakes unintendedly and promised not to repeat the mistakes. rite? so how am i suppose to forgive them. i've tried my very best and i've given up now. totally given up.

i'll start my third year with some new things and changes.........

my... my.... my....

exam finished today..... wanna feel happy coz it has finished or sad coz i screwed up!! ganja! man, i got bored of thinking of my papers. screwing up again n again n again. I'm on my way to go back home. cant wait. haha. anyways, thank you singapore for all these 2 years full of mixed feelings. haha. what happened this year. a lot.

after being two years here, i started to know the true colours of people around me, started to get friends who i'll treasure for the rest of my life, experienced friends who took everything for granted, learnt how to bounce back and so on. learnt a lot this semester. especially, we need to becareful before making friends. really. i was thinking that as long as they are someone u know and know u, be friends. but now, becareful. sometimes, the one u trust turns u down. its our fault actually. those pep dun worth our trusts. stop having trusts on these kinds of pep. ganja.

true characters of pep. funny thinking bout it. haha. dun wanna talk bout this coz its sensitive. i'm in trouble if the person i mention reads this blog. haha. so play safe. what i wan now is a chilling time while packing up. Parit Buntar, here i come...............

Happy Birthday, folks!!

we celebrated both ciqina's ( Ci Qian) and May San's (MS) birthdays together at midnight on the 30th of April. It was an awesome environment and strangely, aman joined us. after the same old procedures, singing and clapping and taking pictures, we went to r5 tv room. we took some pics as well and i pity the guy who was watching a chinese show. really pity him. he might be thinking from which jungle this bunch of pep are. haha. we were making all the noise in the room. aman with his secret crush.... haha.

girls were sitting at one corner. guys might understand y we guys were at the other end of the corner. we were making fun and laughing all the way. with aman trying to get his secret admirer's attention and all; i got a stomachache laughing. we din care bout the birthday girls and their 'girl' friends. haha. really. sorry for that. i dun think they notice. guys, u know y. haha. anyway, happy birthday, girls. welcome to group 22.

tomoro i have the last paper for the sem. i might go back home early this semester. need a break and nothing can beat home sweet home. miss everyone there. so many pep n frens waiting for me back there. can't wait to go back. well, i might miss my frens here but gonna meet you all next sem. so many messages just to know when i'll be back. only when i'm back, the street soccer will come back!!!! waitytytytytyt frens. me on my way already......