Super Sunday.....

today was the tournament day..... i was all hyped up for this event coz this is the only event where i have the chance to play competitive football. well, i had to wake up in the morning. did some warm ups and started walking to the field. well, it was a very nice and warm day. we were in group 1. one of the team screwed up last minute. so we have free 3 points. the first game was awesome. we were losing 1-0 till the end of the half until we scored at almost the last minute of the half. then in the second we replied 3 more. the first game was very inspiring. then in the second game, we were well matched till we scored the only goal in the second half. i was injured as one of the defenders tackeld me with the boots high on air. my knee was injured quite badly. i din play the third n the final match. we lost in the match but still went thru to the quarters. in the quarters, we were unfortunate. we were behind after the freaking goal in early minutes, attacked all the way, hit the post twice and we just couldnt put the ball back in the net. after all the posession we had, we shouldnt have lost. but that's football. i'm happy coz we faught till the last minute and din give up till the end. we were defeated but we din lose. that's the spirit.

after coming back to my room, i slept all the way to dinner and went to dr. patrick tan's house to celebrate chinese new year. came back to my room to sleep at midnight....... what a day....

Alone or lonely......

Everyone, i mean everyone went back last night. so i'm totally alone.... feeling lonely??? nope coz their memories are still with me. haha. i'm busy till sunday, so i dun think i'll feel lonely. maybe monday is the day i'm gonna miss everyone.

Went to JB this morning. need to deposit some money for my uncle. Dan was supposed to meet me there. estate. he din turn up and his phone, i guess, is dead. couldn get thru. i called him 10 times and everytime, i could only reach his voicemailbox and got charged RM 0.24. means i just wasted my RM2.40 just like that. me gonna kick his a** once he's back here.

Tomorrow, i'm playing for Kallan Cup tournament. Last year, we were the runner - ups, lost in the penalties. This year, i hope we do better. anything, i'll give my best and i know my team mates will do so as well. that was the spirit which brought us all the way to the final last year. My fitness level is bad now, but i guess can come back to normal tomoro. too excited. haha. just go n have fun. after all, its football.

frens, i would like to wish u happy new year again. enjoy and dun worry bout NUS since i'm here to take care of it. Enjoy to the max. but dun forget me ah. bring some cookies. and come back fast, yaar. me very very alone here......

Time to be alone......

just now, many of my frens went back to malaysia. tomoro night, the rest will leave me alone...... sigh.... y am i staying here? i dun have the answer. just too committed. need to catch up with my studies, plan for my next red cross activities which are blood donation drive and Chinese New Year celebration for Red Cross Homefor Disabled. Those two major activities will take place in the 2nd week of Feb. man, nvm.... that's y i need to stay back and plan properly. can't mix my commitments with my studies. Mum, i'm very very sorry.... i might not be there when u really need me, but i'll be there at the right time and right place. really sorry for not coming back. i've not been a good son for the past year. feeling bad about it. but u dun wan a son who's not responsible and selfish, right? whatever i'm trying to do now is just and simply just to make you proud. hope you are.

well, after saying goodbye to my frens and let my heart leave, danny, ronny and i went to may san's place. And guess what. the bus driver who brought my frenz back home during last CNY recognises me. how cool it is? he told me that i alwiz send them back but not going back with them. even he can say. but the strange thing is he still remembers me. hahaha. maybe i was too friendly with them last year. hahaha.

We chatted with may san, talked bout the difference between guys n girls in which i understand girls are confused creatures who confuse other people too. hahahaha. after a while, we got tired and sent ronny back. then dan suggested that we watch Kal Ho Na ho. continue watching as he has watched the first CD last week.

We met up at TV room R1. There were some stupid cartoons going on in tv which fancied dan. it was a stupid show, but dan said it was funny. i think stupid things make him laugh. maybe. as we started watching kal ho na ho, the environment changed. we were concentrating. in that kind of environment, dan cracked a joke. after watching the movie for about 1 hour and a half (including last week's), he asked who the mother of Sharukh is? Man, he is a disgrace for bollywood movies. And now, he's sleeping in the room. we still have 3rd CD to go. and i think it will take another week before we could finish watching it.

As for me, everytime i watch this movie, i'll fall in love. i've watched this movie for almost 30-40times. Means i've fallen in love that many times. hahaha. i wish i could fall in love with so many girls. but at the moment stucked with one. hahaha. enough lah.......

in my next blog, i'll write about a girl....... a girl who got my attention and i was maximizing that opputinity to admire her. and i wish i could meet her again... just to admire....

Birthday........

hahahaha. i celebrated my b'day countdown in a different way. in a bus with three almost drunken girls. hahaha. they were all kids, i dunno y they r acting like that, kiddish or drunken. hahaha. we climbed over the gate to get into pgp (our residence). really weird. and after that, i was bombared with lots of sms and calls. the best thing that could happen in my 22nd b'day is the first one to wish me. really din expect it. hahahaha. if u know what i mean.

nothing special today. still going like usual. later at night, we'll go out. dunno where. but i've to go to temple. ok. that's it for todays matter. let me tell u what happened before i spent my time with the girls in the bus.

i attended the NUS Centennial Evening for all the sportsmen n sportswomen. cool. the food was nice, the chicks were awesome; damn hot. but i took wine for the first time in my life. man, what a terrible horrible taste. i wonder how pep drink those alcohol drinks. hate the taste to the max. i took white n red wine. both sux. i know my alcohol tolerance in high, but i just hate it. next time, i'll just take some juices for the table menace. ganja.

the girls were there to perform on stage. their performance was very energetic n nice. then, i got Dr. William Tan's signature, my superstar and idol. Took picture with him too. hahaha. he's a nice and of course a fantabulous (fantastic + fabulous) guy. in short, i was enjoying myself till the time we climbed over the gate. a different way to celebrate my b'day. hahaha.....

Long nights........

Have not been sleeping well for the past few days...... because of commitments. dunno y. just too busy nowadays. din sleep on sunday night and monday morning..... couldnt sleep in the morning and afternoon and at night, too tired to sleep. then last night couldnt sleep.... was thinking about my next poems as words by words and phrases by phrases came into my mind. that made me excited for all night long. then couldnt sleep in the morning as my class was from 8am to 6pm. and now i'm the security guard again in the bazaar. cannot sleep tonight........... as well as tomoro..... if this continues for a week, then only my soul will be writing blog...... and pep will be talking to my thombstone.............

actually, the best thing happened in my life in these few days was actually a series of things. but the best was my dream last night. even though i was just dozed off for a while, i dreamt bout the best thing in years. very very happy. no wonder i'm still happy, excited and still going strong without any sleep or rest.........

Love......

Well, love is a complicated thing. Can't be expressed in words or explained in phrases. But, it's a beatiful feeling. It can help someone to achieve success and at the same time destroy the person. It's up to us how we wanna take the feelings into us.

i realized that people cannot tolerate love failure. Some might be dangerous after that, some might commit suicide (the stupidest thing to do), some might be finding a new 'potential' candidate, etc. However, most of us will feel very down, sad and might be doing crazy things. Some might also force the person to love you back. well, everything is wrong, at least from my perspective.

we are supposed to be happy to fall in love. And for those who are fortunate, your love will be replied or answered. for those who are a bit less fortunate, we'll be rejected. well, its up to us how we gonna face it. I'm not telling this just to play with the words. i've experienced it before. What's wrong if we got rejected. we can never blame the person. never. if we really love the person, we should be happy for him/her. make sure that they are happy and never worry them. its not appropiate to keep nagging and threatening the person.

i loved once and was less fortunate. but i din take that as a reason to screw up my life. there are many more things in our life. Don't care what we went through for all these years but we are responsible in filling up our future with lots of joy and colours. it's true. i'm still truly, madly and deeply in love with the person and i know its impossible for me to get her. but, i did not love her just becoz of thinking or expecting her to love me back. i loved/love her coz she deserves to be loved. its not her fault if she doesnt want and i wont let it go just like that. as long as she's happy, i'm fine. maybe a lot of you will not agree but for me this is the way. When the person who you are living for is not living for you, then its time for you to live for the people who are living for you. i have frens, family, etc. to live for. they have expectation in me. i wont let it go. this is me.

failure doesnt mean the end of the world. failure just means that we have to get back stronger. none of us is alwiz at the top. but everyone will reach the top somehow. it depends on how strong your base is.........

First Day at School!!!!

today is my first day of school after one month break. well, there was only one class today. before i write more bout it, last night my frens n i went out for dinner at lau pa sat. A place of expensive but not tasty food. well, it was sad, u know. coz we walked under the heavy rain, take the longest route, bla bla bla and had so much of difficulties just to end up at lau pa sat. to correct it, we then went to Suntech Starbucks to have expensive coffee. We planned to spend some time at the arcade but the game centre was closed. pity us but we saved money. hahaha. the girls got a chance to spend the whole night at K Box and thanx to them, they refused for us, the guys. really appreciate it. we then went to the Starbucks but none of us took coffee coz we wanted to sleep for our classes the next day. it was fun and i had a great time after so so so damn ganja long.

the most interesting thing that could have ever happened in our lives is that we decided to walk back. under the dreezle, we walked. only three of us. Dan, aman and i. we talked a lot while walking. then after one hour of walking, we were not even half of the distance back, i stopped a Merc Cab. Damn nice to sit even in a Merc Cab. We reached PGP in no time. it was really smooth. Both aman and dan were disappointed as they wanted to walk more. to persuade them, i have to invite them to have some 'guys' talk before going to sleep. we shared a lot of things and were talking till 3 something. it was a very good day at least for me.

as for today, my first class lasted for only 15 minutes and there are no classes next week. I'm so happy for this module. hahahaha. the lecturer is clear, that's the most important thing. on the way for lunch, i met Charlene. My day can never be better than this. First day of school, i meet someone who understands me the most. even though we chatted only for a while, its just enough to brighten up my day. Thanx Charlene.

Since i'm so happy, i'm doing some crazy things. I'm bidding for a module for fun. it doesnt fulfill any of my requirements but i wanna take it for fun. If its too heavy, i'll drop it later. i'm taking 26 MCs this sem. incredible. never done that before. never give up. haha......

New year......

well wednesday, 4th of Jan 2006, was a great day for me. good spirit ahead for the year. haha. i was very busy from 9am to 11pm. first, when i woke up, i checked some things for my friend. have to go to the sci fac n YIH to figure out things. Not so tough.

However, after lunch, my very meaningful busy times kicked off with first aid workshop. i was in the team which conducted it. it was very informative session. very nice. then, i went out to collect money on my uncle's stuff. At the moment, i'm his manager. i collected quite a big amount of money. for the first time in my life, i counted/handled that much of money. i din come back straight after collecting money as i had meetings at head quarters regarding red cross CNY celebration at Red Cross Home for Disabled (RCHD) and our year's workplan. it was a 4 hour session. we took responsiblity for handling the traffic on that day. I think we can do it. then for the workplan, we had a very good discussion and we'll be taking a major step in supporting RCHN. the planned worked very well, i have Dr. Tan's (the teacher advisor) blessings in carrying out the plan. Then, he gave us a lift back. the 'big' amount of money was still in my bag. haha. he was impressed with my work at the moment and acknowledge it. i really felt all my hardwork was really worth it. i've sacrficed a lot for red cross, actually. so i think the appreciation is kind of an award for me. i'll continue working hard for our chapter as well as head quarters.

after coming back, i need to separate the money, dividing it into smaller portions as i need to bank in different accounts the next day. the amount of trust people around me having in me is way too high. i have to maintain it. i'm really glad i'm given such a big oppurtinity to prove myself and i'm doing well.

tomoro, i'll have a long day too. meeting dan in JB. shud be very enjoying.

Happy happy happy new year......

A very happy new year to everyone........ well, to conclude 2005 with a high note, i went to watch The Dark, so that the new year will bring a bit of light. but i regretted watching the movie. well, if u have science background, never watch coz u'll end up laughing like me. If u believe in myths, legends, still dun watch it if u really wanna continue believing legends and myths. if u have non-science background and dun believe in myths, u will still dun understand the movie.....

New year, a year full of hopes and dreams. every year we come up with resolutions, hoping everything will be achieved. So i have made some resolutions:

1) having/searching a girlfriend
2) CAP must not go down anymore
3) horror movies must be horror not funny
4) world peace
5) hope my clustermates clean the kitchen n toilet after use
6) the pep will stop playing music instrument at midnight
7) see 'cun' girls everyday
8) play football at least twice a sem
9) play badminton every sunday
10) getting more friends
11) pep donate blood
12) keep pep laughing everytime around me

well, let me dream something before adding up. so means, i wanna sleep. hahaha.

Happy New Year........ 2006 will be a splendid year, i can feel.......