year end!!!!

today's our cinderella's birthday. at last, finally, she became an adult. can vote dy.... as to celebrate it, i went to the cinema alone. all alone. man, never go to cinema alone. u cannot even share the jokes or critisize the movie right at that spot..... i was not desperate for movies, but need to finish up my vouchers before saturday. so i'm trying my very best now. hahaha. King Kong, not bad but it din capture my heart and attention as LOTR did. but the fight between our King and t-rex was awesome. tomoro i might bring some frenz to watch together. told u before, need to finish up my vouchers.

i was and am sick for the past few days. dunno y. maybe my frenz missing me too much. come on lah, school reopens in about 11 days time. u guys gonna see me latest by then. dun miss me too much or i cannot work over here. hehehe.

yesterday was one of the most meaningful dates for me. the turning point of my life....... well, i wish nothing happened actually. but we had our red cross new year party. joy and laughter..... enjoyed very much. that's the spirit. after enjoying, we have to get back to work. a lot busier next year. hope everything is fine.....

already started bidding. u guys will be shocked if u know how i bidded. nobody would believe me, who spent a mere 7 points plus 15 or so for the past two sems, will do something like this. to save time, i bidded only once. hahaha. guess how is it?

now........ still waiting for the results. whatever, there's alwiz office of Life Sciences to settle things for me... hahahaha.....

oh ya, before i forget, Happy New Year!!!! Welcome 2006, i've been expecting u for so long.......

at last...... my forth poem!!!

In the midst of evrything, i did come up with a poem. its funny to think about it. hahahaha........
here's my poem:

The Day I Met You…… (title by Charlene)


The day I met you
my dreams came true;
the sky looked so blue,
there’s where my heart flew.

Amongst the stars in the galaxy,
It’s the moon which shines across the sky;
Amongst the wonders of the world,
It’s you who brightened up my life

In my meaning of life, you’re the definition;
In the journey of life, you’re my destination

Allow me to show you,
the paradise is true…..
Allow me to prove to you,
angels are made for you….
Allow me to share with you,
what a twinkling star can do……
Allow me to care for you…..
Allow me, please, will you?

I gave my heart to you,
but u returned in pieces;
no matter how hard I try to mend,
it would never be the same again.

Why praying for something hopeless;
Why crying for something meaningless;
Why trying for something useless; and
Why searching for something clueless?

What’s the use of singing,
without knowing the tunes;
What’s the use of painting,
without playing with the colours;and
What’s the use of loving,
without appreciating the person……

I’ve loved once,
for me, it’s enough;
in the next birth,
hope I’ll be loved…………

Created by,
Dinesh @Dd
(title by Charlene)
21 December 2005.

Screwed up!!!!

screwed up, starting from 13th of August, 12 am, my life has been screwed up. After i screwed up my love life, i got the presidency of Red Cross, which is a good thing. but then, my free time was screwed up......... then my health was screwed up, i was sick almost every week coz of stress and pressure. this resulted in the screwing up of my studies.... my classes screwed up as well as my mid term exams... everything screwed up.

then goes to my uncle's employee... he screwed up together with my sim card.... bad omen. i have to take care of what he left, my free time again was screwed up. financially, i was screwed up later. my finals, again was screwed up. have to work during my exam period, concentration screwed up, din have enough rest, ultimate pressure.

basically, i was screwed up. everything was going in the opposite way. man,.........

however, there's one thing which made me happy and relieved. my frenz were there for everything, giving me confidence and strength, fighting for every second. thanx a lot. without them, i would have been an ultimate loser.

need to rebuild my confidence for next sem.... i've fallen quite hard and bad. but i'll bounce back even stronger next sem.......

Hmmm......

went back home last week to visit my mum. she's weak after undergoing a surgery. but she's getting better now. after seeing me, she's very much better. haha. once i came back, i had a lot of things to do. haiya... busy man. i had to go here and there and spent a lot of time and money travelling. but i could have save if i know exactly where those locations are. sigh.....

already start cooking now. even though my cooking is not good (mum's cooking is the best always), but getting better. that's the most important thing; improvement. tomoro i'm gonna cook again. first time gonna cook chicken sambal. god, help me. hope i can eat it. and perhaps dan can eat also. haha.

my fourth poem is in progress. can't find words dy. maybe later after watching kuch kuch hota hai, i'll get motivated. hope so. i have to finish it. long time din come up with a poem. very very busy.

this year has been a so so year for me. however, a lot of things happened to me. mixture of feelings. i learnt a lot. really a lot. and there's a lot more to learn.... still in the process..

last thurs, went for a scholarship interview.... well, if i can get it, its a bonus for me. but if can't better luck next time. haha. not expecting anything. already given my best and i'll stay positive.

need to rest now. having a long day tomoro........

Life after exams....

wow, cool. this is what i thought i would be after my exams. but busy, stressed are the words best describe my situation now. busy with packing.... wonder how i, who stays here for the vacation, am busy packing. actually, i'm the kooli of the day. helping my frenz shifting their things. this is one of the 'jobs' i enjoy doing.
this is the first time i'm writing in this month. nothing happened. a boring life. need some planning for red cros for next semester. haven started but have to before i could go back most probably this thursday. my mum is weak after undergoing a surgery. so i think i have to go back to give some strength to her. hope she'll be fine. she will.
malaysia won 61golds in the SEA games. proud of u Malaysia. but very disappointed with the badminton team. after grabbing gold in the team event (men) with a mesmerizing moment, coming from 0-2 behind to win 3-2 against the Indon in the finals, the individuals gave up so easily. sigh.......
for football team, congratulations. even though din qualify to the finals, bronze isn't bad. really. maybe we must not be so slacky after taking the lead or getting goals till the last minute. maybe this is what they shud learn. everything else, congratulations.
feeling so lonely here. everyone is going back. i mean most of them. looking at them making me to feel stronger and special. i'm here for my commitments. good for me.
i think that's it for now. have to start writing a letter to my friend. she's gonna kill me after knowing i have not even touched the pen to write to her. Adious.

What a day!!!

shud have waken up early, but since i slept quite late after watching HUL CHUL alone... couldnt open my eyes this morning. woke up to help aman. HUL CHUL is not up to what i expected. the movie is not worth for a second watch. what's the point??? i watched kal ho na ho, con air, rush hour, etc for so so many times. so u can take my comment. btw, kal ho na ho is on tv (singapore) on the 4th Dec. i bet most of u will cry. hahaha.

cleaned up the room again since some of the aman's stuffs now in my room. so need some reorganization. feel so bored after the exams. dunno what to do. later have to start with my work. but it will not take long.

i have no complete joy after the exams....... dunno y. on seeing pep packing, feeling so sad. i have to go back home to meet my mum. she just undergone a surgery and she's still very weak. but with my commitments over here, i can't go back yet. need planning... planning..... how ya?

live is not easy as i grow up. need to do some decision which i'm afraid can hurt people. nvm....